I’ve always been bad at school.
I don’t listen properly
I zone out
I don’t stick to the briefs
…but it doesn’t make me a dumb person
In my academic life I’ve always had to have extra help and support, this is because I’m just not an academic person- I’m a doer, I like to be practical and my worst nightmare is to sit and write for long periods of time about topics that I can’t relate to.
I love: cooking, music, art, sport, environment and finance. I want to start a business.
But my grades… They’ve been somewhat laughable…
Don’t get me wrong I have the brain capacity to do a good, well informed essay- but if I’m not passionate about what I do. Then nothing good will come from it.
To inform you of just how bad my grades have been
They’ve literally ranged between a 2 out of 100 (also known as the letter grade- U for ungradeable) sorry Miss Boden…you were actually a good teacher…
and A’s for topics like geography where we learnt about the world and how it worked.
The difference between the two grades, was that I able to be practical in the one I succeeded in- the one I completely, humiliatingly failed in… was a science report on molecules that was one of the most dry things I’ve ever had to write…
The whole point of this somewhat self destroying blog… Is that IT IS OKAY to get bad grades IT IS OKAY to fail. Everyone in this world is different, not everyone in this world is academic and even if you are academic, you can’t always be the best.
I got terrible grades but I still write to you in an articulate, personal and informative way. This was developed through me reading and reflecting on language all throughout my life
…between you and me…
I didn’t know the order of the alphabet until a very late age.
I had to sit down, on my own, with a dictionary that had an alphabet in the back of it and learnt it by heart because my maths teacher asked the class to order dots by the alphabet AND I COULDN’T DO IT.
It was shit
I had to look at my neighbours answers and copied…
rest assured I now know the alphabet…
but in all seriousness, I felt really bad
I shouldn’t have though
I’m really smart with music, I always got the highest grades possible and have a natural understanding of pitch and harmony that people are shocked to hear is self taught.
I became a chef and learnt an entire menu in a week with no prior experience cooking in a professional kitchen- and when I quit my job to go to Sweden…
They said they’d keep my position open for 3 months so if I were to change my mind, they’d have me back
Not only that but I have been building this soon to be business from the ground up, with the hopes of making the world a better place
I’m just not academic
and that’s okay.
School just wasn’t for me…
I hope through this you understand that school and grades aren’t what define you, only you can let that happen. Even now I know 40 year olds that beat themselves up over a bad grade 20 years ago, we need to calm down.
If I could turn back the clock I would have gone back to highschool to tell myself to stop comparing and to stop beating myself up over my friendship groups grades being better than mine.
It’s just something to reflect on…
New post tomorrow,
P.S… I went to the lake yesterday and it was super, super relaxing.